Women’s Chronicles

I had promised myself for some time now to chronicle my pregnancy experience as a first-time mom so that my daughter can have it as a keepsake if she ever one day wants to know the story of her birth.

“I am extremely proud of myself for the woman I have become.

“Well I see she back home now and is like she would be looking at me from underneath, you know.

“I am just trying to put my life back together and move on.

“Sometimes I get lonely, but I don’t let it bother me too much because for me right now, taking someone is not something I want to do.

“These last few months since the pandemic came to Guyana have really been hard for me.

“People would always say that when you don’t have children to mind then things must be really easy.

“A lot of work coming but sometimes I can’t explain it to she and then I have to work and when I come home in the nights I does be too tired.

“Little girls need to know their place, sorry to say this because I don’t know the whole story, but I know these teenagers behave more bruk out than we old people.”

“I know I made a big mistake and every day I am sorry.

“This is the second day I coming here. Yesterday when I come I didn’t even had nothing to eat because I say I would come and get through fast.

“For 19 years I have been living with HIV and I see the good and the bad in people.

“I knew it was happening. I closed my legs tight as if to stop it from happening.

“It is not that I don’t love my mother. I do feel something because if she calls right now I would drop what I am doing and go and help.

“I just wanted you out there to know if you are stepmother or a stepfather, sometimes you would try to protect that child, but you should only protect that child from their biological mother or biological father [if he/she] is a threat, if that mother is an abusive mother or that father is an abusive father…” These were the words of a young woman who posted a video on Facebook where she spoke about growing up without her mother and how difficult it was being denied knowing her mother as a child.

“I used to get licks for tea, breakfast and dinner. You think is two cents I went through in this life?

“Looking back now, I don’t know if I should have done it because I am now burdened with this thing.

“I don’t have no more fight in me. Before, I felt like I was going to die.

I recently witnessed a horrifying incident at the Awen (8) Supermarket, which is located on the Railway Embankment in the community of Enmore.

“I was on my back step teaching my son when he turn to me and say, ‘Mommy look some children hiding in the bush.’