“When my daughter write she get the lowest school in Georgetown. I couldn’t believe it, is like I went in shock…,” she said quietly.
I recently visited the women’s psychiatric ward of the Georgetown Public Hospital and I felt that were it not for the Grace of God I could have become mentally ill from just the appearance of the area and the depressing conditions under which its two patients were housed.
“My mom was not there for me, she would never support me with my homework and so.
“I got pregnant when I was 12 and my mother was angry, and she would beat me.
“There are always the memories, there are tears sometimes too. Quite a lot of memories, but I console myself with the fact that according to my faith in the resurrection I would see my son again under better circumstances.” The words of Claudette Fredericks who lost her son just about five months ago.
“Some days does be trialling, but I had to throw pride and dignity behind and just do what I have to do.
“My daughter-in-law water bag buss since yesterday morning and she in suh much pain and only now dem preparing she to go theatre,” the woman said, worry etched on her face.
“Sometimes I feel as if I am going out of my mind and then at other times I feel guilty as if I am not doing enough and I am failing them,” she said with a sad shake of her head.
The telephone on my desk rang. I answered and was informed that I had a visitor.
“My father put me out and now he say he will tek back me son, but he don’t want me back at the house.
“I wanted to die,…. I remember one time going to the harbour bridge at about three one morning with every intention of jumping over and this policeman pulled me over and he sat in the car and just talked to me.
“Being a single parent has it positives and its negatives. For me I have learnt to look past the fact that I am a single parent because honestly sometimes I don’t even remember that these children have a father.” The words of a 38-year-old mother of three (ages 13, 10 and 8) who gets little or no support from the father of the children.
“You know I don’t really get to enjoy me fairy lights and Christmas decorations because now is time to tek down and is like only the other day I put them up,” Marian said with some amount of genuine disappointment.
“About a year or two ago I actually started being vocal and stuff.
Last Tuesday at midday a few women assembled in front of the Bishops’ High School calling for the removal of the school’s head Winifred Ellis.
“I does sit down in the yard all day. I don’t mix or nothing but I does just sit down in the yard because I don’t have nothing to do.” The words of a 21-year-old mother of one who lives in a depressed community in Georgetown.
“I have been married for 14 years and before, we had some good times.
“I grow up on the market, since I was a child. Me mother had 14 children and it was really hard because since we growing we sleeping on the market.
“It is very hard for the younger policewomen in the force now because to me it is getting worse.
“This is me business, I been selling like this for years, you know how long.
“I am a businesswoman and I don’t want my business to go down but sometimes it really gets hard because everything comes in one time and even though you explain to people they still asking you to try and me with me good heart I can’t say no.
“When I hear the verdict, not guilty, it sent me in a rage.
“I am now waking up from the shock. You know, initially, I was in shock but now reality is stepping in and I am feeling emotional.
“You think I am happy?” she asks, her panting signalling that her baby is getting more difficult to carry by the minute.
“Only the pillow can tell how many tears I shed. It has not been easy you know but I would not give up and even though they pay late and the money is small I bless God for it.
“Yes so…,” and then she was silent for a few seconds, or longer.
“Mother’s Day is always a struggle for me because people believe I am not a mother.
“I can’t sit down. I just have to get up, I have to get up and get.