“Sometimes I would sit in my house for days and don’t come out and nobody would understand the depression I going through.
“You know what is the hardest thing?” she asked. I knew she was not expecting an answer.
A sister shared about her eye-opening experience during a recent visit to Mahdia, in Region Eight.
“For me, just getting a new start is good enough. I ain’t really putting no meaning to New Year’s Day but I just happy that in the new year I not the same way I start out and for that I just thanking God.
“Sometimes I want to do so much, and it just gets to me.
“Security guards work under terrible conditions and not just where you work, but also there is sometimes no paid leave… If you call in sick you are not paid.
“I have been living 22 years with HIV and if you look at me you cannot tell but I would not tell any and everybody that I have HIV because the stigma and discrimination is not nice and so I just trying to live my life,” the 46-year-old mother of six told me.
“Stigma and discrimination is still a big, big thing in Guyana and because of that people don’t want to say that they HIV positive.
It is the hardest thing I have had to deal with in my life and I don’t wish this on any other parent.
“The first time it happen, I can’t say I was shocked because even before we marry, I was afraid of him.
“The biggest emotion I felt on the annulment of my marriage was relief.
“The worst thing about this job is not the little bit of money we work for or even the long hours, it is how people treat us.
“I was almost ready to get baby and we had not marry for a very long time when I found out he was cheating, and this thing got me so sick that I end up in hospital.
“One day I just get so tired and so frustrated I just throw all me things away, because like I didn’t able no more with this life.
“Good morning, Sir. How can I help you this morning?” asked the chirpy young woman behind the counter.
“How you could go to a Pandit? We are not Hindus, we are Christians,” she said with a hint of anger.
“I never wanted to be a grandmother at this age. I still see my child as a baby and now for her to go and have a baby?
“The first time I thought of it I was scared. I could not believe that something like that would enter my mind.
“Excuse me, I am crossing over because by the time I walk around I may lose the seat and I really need the seat,” she said as she lightly held onto my shoulders before quickly grabbing the seat next to me.
“I don’t know if I am being too hard on her but even though I know she may not be around much longer like I just wish she would just say I am sorry.